Bruiser.

Even my dog has lost weight! He had gotten pretty fat over the winter, too. Now his collar is really loose around his neck. He's laying beside me, passed the eff out after out run. It started raining toward the end and he was so mad. He ran with his eyes nearly closed and shook his fur a lot. Every day after our run we get to the top of the driveway and do a Rocky-type celebration dance. I love my dog. He's inspiration for my weight loss, too.

I did it!

I weighed myself last night and after nearly a week of strict diet and exercise I have lost 3 pounds. That's just the boost I need right now, as dieting is already getting kind of old.

I have also started running again and remember why I love it so much. I've started back into it by running two minutes and then walking one for about a half hour, accumulating 20 minutes of running time. I did that the last two days and today I ran three minutes and walked one, accumulating 21 minutes of running time. It's so addictive.

To see what I've been eating click here:
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/food/diary/terriruin

To see what exercise I've been doing click here:
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/exercise/diary/terriruin

Inspiration

I'm really hungry today and this is the image that will keep me from messing up!

http://www.modcloth.com/Womens/Dresses/-Un-twill-We-Meet-Again-Dress

The dress I want to wear to my sister's wedding.

Wow.

I just read through all the old blogs I've written and realized how many times I've tried to lose weight and not succeeded. I knew it was a lot, but seeing the evidence in writing is really depressing. I'm trying again. I want this to be the actual time. I've been trying to make healthy choices for the last few months, but have given myself lots of room to cheat and of course haven't seen any results. A few factors have kicked me into overdrive:

1) The other day at Parker's school a little girl asked me if I am going to have a baby.
2) The back and forth, the losing of weight and then gaining more back more than I lost, is how people become super fat. I'm scared.
3) The support of my mother. She really laid things out for me and I have a good grip on what I need to do right now.

My mom has a bunch of great mantras. One that is getting me through right now is that one's weight depends on "10% genetics, 10% exercise and 80% what you eat". She also recommended I get really anal about healthy eating. When I come home from the grocery store I spend a lot of time cutting fruits and vegetables and packaging them in serving size packages. I love that shit. I feel like eating has become a game and I'm almost never hungry.

I have stopped eating at work (oh Curry Fried Rice, I miss you so much!). It's only been three days since I've stayed under my calories (about 1500) and I've been working out twice a day, but I feel confident that I can keep it up.

Another reason I am really motivated to get fit is my sister is getting married on July 16th and I would just die if I looked like I do now in the pictures. I intend to lose 20 pounds by then and 50 pounds when it's all said and done. When I hit my goal weight I'm totally going to dye my hair platinum blonde like ladies do when they lose a lot of weight.